good days, bad days

i am at rock bottom, or damn near. i don't care about school anymore. wait, that's a lie. i hate school now. i hate my job, no rewards, no sense of accomplishment, no gratitude (a note to all: don't be a dick to your servers at restaurants -- that shit ain't easy). i have no love/sex life, no prospects, no game, and recently, no will to even try. i am at rock bottom, or damn near.

what i hope will happen is that once i am completely lost in hopelessness some sense of inner freedom will emerge.

otherwise i think i shall only go mad.